Random Thoughts

It has been a while since we last blogged... so much of our life revolved around the potential adoption and the roller coaster of emotions. While we were disappointed, we have been handling the outcome much better than anticipated. We received a card from my aunt that will forever remain in my Bible as comfort and a huge reminder of hope. The front of it had this saying from S.D. Gordon, "More is being planned for you by God than had been prayed for by us." As Troy said, "That is spot on!" So we continue to pray and wait. We did give our portfolio to one of my clients who is looking at family profiles for her son due in May. Don't know if she will choose us, but the timing would be perfect if she did.

Our house church network is growing and it has been great to build new relationships with people. The week before Easter we had 19 people and it was cozy. We have a nice size house, but it starts to feel small once you get that many people in your living room. It is a great problem to have. Another church started on Thursday nights called the House of Hope. They are using Celebrate Recovery materials to work with their participants. God is truly at work in the network and city!

We are eagerly waiting for Spring! I am ready to get the garden started and flowers planted. I also love to sit on the deck and watch the birds!

We bought a new swivel rocker recliner today with a nice donation we received from a person who will enjoy it thoroughly! More seating for house church and necessary for baby! Best thing yet, it is being delivered on Tuesday!

The End

We are off the roller coaster ride of domestic adoption. Our birth mom chose to parent her child. While we worry about the choice she made and how it will effect her family, we know that God has better plans for us. We feel God's love and peace through this time. Thanks for all the prayers.

15 Months and Other Stuff

Today marks our 15 month of waiting in line for China. It is nice we are one month closer to our little one, but this is also an anxious time in our life as we are waiting to see if we get to parent another little one domestically. I just got off the phone with our SW and she said it does not look good for our birth mom to go through with the adoption. She is not thinking rationally and comes up with even a more irrational answer when you ask her a question. Only time will tell. There is another opportunity in the background that I am going to explore more, but need to wait and see what happens with our first BM.

Denial

Our BM did not show up for her Dr.'s appointment today in which they were going to induce her. I was on pins and needles waiting for a phone call...dropped my lesson plans off at school just in case... went to the prenatal clinic to make the time pass...called BM at 12 only to find she just woke up and missed her appointment. We continue to pray for her and the baby. She did mention she lost her mucus plug which is a good sign. I have never been a fan of induction, but we are ready for this baby to be born and this roller coaster ride to end. Hopefully she will deliver naturally in the next few days and God's will will be revealed.

Still Anxiously Waiting

We continue to wait each day for the call to go to the hospital. Each morning I find myself saying, "Please let this day be the day she delivers." My boss told me yesterday I am experiencing labor in a different form. Patience is not my best virtue, but God is truly testing me and making me WAIT! Domestic adoption, especially when you personally know the birth mom, is not for the light hearted. I don't know if I could go through this again.

I took our BM to pay bills on Wednesday after we got home from STL. She opened up in the car and mentioned she is so confused and depressed. We talked for probaby 2 hour and had a true heart to heart conversation. I won't go into the details, but we cried and prayed together. Please continue to pray for all of us. This is SOOOOOO hard!

Soon..

...the stork should be coming. I took our BM to the Dr. today and they are going to induce her next Monday if she has not delivered by then. She was up Sunday night with contractions and lightheaded and nauseous this morning. All good signs of impending delivery. I am hoping she delivers on Tuesday so we have something to distract us on Wednesday when we go to STL for fingerprinting. God only knows. Time will tell if she lets us parent her child. She didn't bring anything up today. Please keep us all in your prayers.